Nothing prohibits you from making a call

I am not sure what you are asking. Perhaps allow another person to read it without prompting and ask that person to interpret it

Never go to the Police. consult a lawyer first. maintain your right to remain silent

That's why you have an attorney. .

Could have? But didn't! No harm, no foul reimbursement only

Is there a question? .

Stop typing in all caps. It is considered rude and shouting

Mere suspicion is all you have. .

If you are claiming such severe psychological trauma and you have not received any treatment including groups or clergy which are without charge...

You have a lawyer with whom you should be discussing all of this