You need to hire counsel or have the court appoint one to defend you.
The above is not intended as legal advice. The response does not constitute the creation of an attorney client relationship as this forum does not provide for a confidential communication.
The surrounding facts and circumstances posted by you are unclear, however, I strongly recommend that you do not put any further information about the case on a public website such as this. I likewise recommend that you do not talk to ANYONE about it except for a qualified criminal defense attorney in your area. There are several highly qualified attorney participating on this website from your area who have the necessary skill and experience to assist you with this matter. Reach out to local attorneys who respond here. Talk to two or more of them until you find a lawyer who not only possesses the needed skill and experience but with whom you are comfortable. You need legal representation now.