I've developed a severe phobia with high anxiety when I see any cops now. With that in mind I have been scared to death to go file papers for a divorce in family court. In regards to the best interests of my children I need legal help that I just can not afford, due to the fact of spouse having me basically forced to agree on matters in court (order of protection) after that arrest, while looking down at the barrow of a gun with hands tied. legal aid, pro bono refused to help, nor can I afford any more consults that the bar has giving me. I'm stressed and so scared to go along that it isn't funny. any advice?