Do I have a malprctice case

I've been seeing my vascular access surgeon for about 12yrs. within this time I have had several catheter place in my chest and now the are is occuled. I have also had several access implanted for dialysis that ended up getting infected. finally this year I decided to ask around and went to another surgeon who implanted an access for dialysis for me that was successful. for the past couple of year the pain and suffering has been so terrible that I wanted to die from my previous access trouble from my previous surgeon. Everyday I have to look at the scars and know that they are probably definitely not removable and also remember what I went trough for years thinking that my surgeon probably just wanted me to die instead of helping or sending me to another doctor.